What I’ve Learned in my Twenties
I’m sure this feeling is normal when someone ages into a new decade. I’m 30. The big 3-.0 When I think about it deeper, I’ve come to the understanding that I am still bothered, rather, I’m still dealing with some things that I haven’t let go of. Ten years ago, I thought I would be in a totally different “space.” I thought I would be well into my career as a teacher, married with a couple of kids and just living the life. I can’t explain what sort of life I thought I’d be living, but when you’re young and naive, you think of a lot of things that don’t make much sense to you when you become an adult. I can clearly see now, how limited my mind was. I can clearly see now how closed-minded I was. Ten years later, I can say that with everything that I thought I would have at this age, I have none of it. Everything that I thought would “make” me happy, I have none of it. What I am certain of is that I am the most happiest that I have ever been in my life without any of that “stuff”.
Many of the lessons that I’ve learned in my 20’s, are based on experiences that have happened within in the last 5 years. At the age of 20, I was doing everything that I was supposed to do. I was in college, maintaining a 3.5 GPA, I had a job to fund my shopping addiction, I was in a long-term relationship and I lived my life as though I had no worries. While I can’t say that I felt I was on top of the world, I had a good life, but I can definitely say that I had no sense of who I was then. I was often, sad, felt lonely, misunderstood, and unhappy. At the age of 25, I went through a life crisis. One single event happened and I thought my life was over. It was so hard to deal with it. I could not see past the pain, the hurt, the betrayal, the anger of what had happened to me.
Little did I know what I was about to embark on. An awakening happened to me. Whether I wanted to accept it or not, spirituality called, and I answered. Without me knowing, in some way I made a decision to embark on this new life, this new journey, and it has been a tremendously bumpy, humble, yet a awarding journey. Things began to change for me. I noticed my mindset changed, I was certainly more positive and my relationship with Source (often referred to as God) became stronger. I liked who I was becoming. My relationships changed, I viewed friendships differently, I developed my own definitions of what happiness is and how love is supposed to feel. While this journey has not been easy, it’s something that I don’t regret embarking on. Your 20’s are a time where you’re learning who you are as a person. Now when I think about it, I went through my twenties unprepared for many of the things I wanted. I’m at a really great space in my life right now and to be here, in this space, I have to give homage to my twenties. There have been many lessons learned along this path. In the next upcoming weeks, I will share with you the lessons I’ve learned in my twenties.
If you’re reading this and you’re in your twenties, enjoy this time, and don’t be afraid to make mistakes and to take chances. It’s all leading up to something great…continue on the path and live as though there is no tomorrow. Stay tuned my friends….
Namaste,
Di
